Did I Keep My Resolutions For 2020?

To say the year 2020 was hectic would be an understatement. However, to say it did not bring me peace would be a lie. Strange, isn't it, for an year to be hectic yet peaceful at the same time? Like chaos, but peaceful. Very strange indeed. 2020 has been quite the year, hasn't it? It has been a BIG one for me for sure. My life changed drastically this year. I entered the year on the first of January in a state completely different than what I'll be leaving the year with on the thirty first of December. It's been a busy one, alright! So the big question is, was I able to keep up with the resolutions I'd made at the beginning of the year? Or did I fail? Did I manage to achieve the goals I'd planned for myself? Or did the way 2020 drained me leave my goals unfulfilled? Time to find out!

Love myself truly, madly, deeply: I don't know how I did on any of my other goals this year, but I can proudly and happily tell you, I succeeded on this one for sure. Self love is the biggest mantra of my life since some years now and it has helped me become so much more happier in my head and my heart. This year I fought the forces of hate and evil coming towards me with even more force than ever before and I was able to succeed in loving myself truly, madly, deeply. I'd promised that in 2020 I'd love myself more than I have ever loved before. At the end of the year, I'm happy to say that I did. I loved myself and I took care of myself and I am in love with who and what I am at the end of 2020. - SUCCESS!

Take it easy on myself: I let go, I gave myself a break when I knew I couldn't do it all, and I managed to not go bonkers when I realized something wasn't in my control. I definitely did take it easy on myself this year. Well, at least I took it easier on myself compared to last year. So this one is definitely a green check. - SUCCESS!

Become spiritually stronger: I know I'm not satisfied with this one. It's not like I didn't try. It's not like I didn't plan. It's not like I didn't bother. It's just that life beleaguered and I didn't perform as well on this one as I should have. - FAILED!

Find and break a bad habit: I started 2020 pinpointing a bad habit of mine in my head and committing to try and break it. I never found the time to do it though. To break a bad habit you need space in your head to focus with. The kind of hectic year I had, that space was a terrible mess and clearly not available to focus. - FAILED!

Don't run after anything/anyone: RIP to all the people I decided to not chase this year to try and keep them or some part of them in my life. RIP to them all. I was definitely successful with this promise that I made to myself at the beginning of the year. I knew where I wasn't wanted and I did not want to be there either. I knew when to walk away. I knew when to shut my heart to a plan or an idea or a person or a relation when I realized it was shady. I did not run after anything or anyone that did not want me back in return this year. I did not run after any of it or them and trust me, I've felt so well rested not running. - SUCCESS!

Stop advising when not asked: This was going really really well for the first couple months of 2020 until I started easing off on things and ended up failing at this. I found myself talking where I wasn't supposed to be advising on stuff at all because I thought it would be beneficial or the right thing to say. It cost me my respect. I have learned my lesson, much too late in the year for me to be successful on this, but a lesson has been learned indeed. - FAILED!

Live in the moment: I resolved to not let life pass me by. I resolved to live in the now. I resolved to make the most of every moment. I think I did too. I wore that new shirt instead of saving it for later. I posted that picture now instead of saving it for a better time. I did not wait for that better moment. I did not hold on to the idea of a possible right time. And it felt so so good. - SUCCESS!

So basically I'd set myself seven resolutions, out of which I've been successful in fulfilling four. Three failures. Four successes. Not bad at all. Honestly, when I began this post I wasn't expecting this at all for I really had a hectic year and hardly ever went back to check up on my resolutions. So there's a pleasant surprise! Now, moving on, I'm all set for the year to end and 2021 to begin with a new set of resolutions. I haven't entirely planned out all of them but I definitely have an idea of some I want to resolve. Lets see what happens! Pat on the back for me on being a good girl this year. Oh and also good luck to me for the next year!